I'm back. A changed person?

Okay, hey guys, I'm back? - To all those who even read my blog, not that i am able to boast about a large fan base and stuff.

Yeah, but i might just stop blogging temporarily.
Because blogging really takes up a shitload of time, and i have other interests and things to attend to than to come rant here every single day or even every other day.

Been quite down lately. And further being influenced by the down moods of my close friends too.

I really wonder if i made a wrong choice. Was it a wrong choice to leave him in the lurch like this, and not to give him one last chance?
But if so, why did he only have the determination and urge to change his attitude and character at the very edge?
Must be afraid of being pushed down the cliff then will react isit?
Before that keep giving empty promises to change for what.
Yes.
No doubt you did change a little, you gave me more leeway.
Yet you scolded me more and complained more!
What's the use you tell me.
It's gonna be you and your nature forever.
Even if saying you'll be able to change now and begging for one last chance,
I really do not see any future in us.
You might be able to change for me now, how about say, even a year down the road?
Would things still be the same?
I need someone who understands me and lets me enjoy my freedom willingly, not someone who wants to change for me at the very edge of losing me.
I do not want you to force yourself to change and be unhappy, no matter how much you're willing to sacrifice for me.
Both sides will suffer at a later stage.

Thus,
I'm did so to cause less hurt between us at the very end.
And,
I do not believe that long relationships before marriages last.
Many real life cases I've seen.
They always cock up somehow or rather.

Time to focus on my studies nd learning process.

End-of-story.
Goodbye.