SHIAAATTTT. My bodyclock is officially screwed. Just ended yet another mahjong session earlier and my body refuses to hibernate for the night (technically,morning).
I probably look more haggard anyone's mum now lah wtf. LOL
NEED TO SLEEP. kkz time to force thyself to bed.
And guess what. I just realised it's only a day away from Valentine's. Sometimes I feel like a full fledged single, yet I still harbour hopes for a memorable V day despite knowing better not to expect anything. Sighhhhh. I really wish I could actually look forward to celebrating a memorable occasion with you. From special dates and joyous occasions like my birthday, 11.11.11, Christmas to New Year's day, AND NOW Valentine's Day, I have never received anything really special, nor have you made much effort to bring me to somewhere nice to celebrate. On the contrary, you weren't even present during these dates. I understand that you have a duty to serve the nation, but the least you could do was to make up for it in some other way?
Ever since the disappointment of the 3 major dates - my birthday, 11.11.11 and New Year's day, I decided to drop all hopes of any surprise in store for me. Waited and waited but they never happened. I could probably incubate an egg while waiting. It really feels like I'm expecting money to descend from the sky.-thoughts and wishes that are so far from my reach.. It's hard to keep faith in something verbal, I need to see you put them into action.
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| Mutual love is hard to come by, and I hope you'll fcking treasure it cuz when all is lost, you'll only see yourself weeping badly in a pile of regrets. |
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