"Can we take it back baby, wanna take it back to the day that we first met"

I know you won't change, but what's making me hang in there is probably my love towards you.
When I said I was sick, tired and bored of everything, they were words said in a fit of anger.
Everytime I look at you, I fall into the love river all over again.
It's easy to sink in but it gets harder to resurface each time.
Does it work the same for you? :)

The bond between us is strong yet wavering.
Our love is what keeps us going, but it wavers because the future is so undefined.
Every step I take is like threading on thin ice.
I fear the day when our love bubble will burst and disappear into thin air.
I fear because you've never really let me know clearly where I stand in your heart.
I feel vulnerable because I've let you in on more about me than what I know about you.
I feel depressed when I don't feel cherished. I HATE IT ACTUALLY LOL.
You're special to me baby,
When I fear and I don't illicit a proper response from you, that's when I start to lose faith in us.

Yes, I don't deny feeling bored, feeling tired when shit happens.
Not bored of you, but bored of the things you do.
I feel numb, because we are constantly arguing over the same issue, of which it is something I've mentioned countless times but never saw you take much action.
I feel bored when you cease to send sweet texts to me and stop being sweet on the phone.
I feel bored when I go over and you play games while all I do is stare at the ceiling.
I feel bored when I think about the many other fulfilling activities we could do during the wkends than to sleep, laze, chill or pool.
I feel bored when our relationship lacks spice. A few daily texts, plus a short call each night, and the whole wkend sleeping - how SPICY or passionate is that?
(not that I mind the frequency, but its the content. Quality over quantity anytime. Sweetness or surprises can kill the boredom easily, and it isn't hard to cheer someone up in a text or call right? ^^)
I feel tired when I give in so much to your whims and fancy, prioritising your happiness over mine and not getting full appreciation in return.
I feel tired when I've so many questions but not even half the answers.
I feel tired of waiting for a miracle to happen.

HOWEVER. 

The nights become so lonely without you to hold me tight.
Sleeping and waking in your arms has got to be one of the best feelings ever. (vice versa eh? :P)
The laughter and joy and chemistry we share even after our fiercest fights.
The stupid faces we pull at each other, its too cute.
Our inside jokes, never shared to outsiders.
When you offered to always be my listening ear ♥
The way you act like a kid, actions that I'm privileged to see.
The way you slipped your fingers into mine for the first time, so pure and innocent.
The overwhelming sweetness when you kiss my forehead.
The infinite and synchronised thump of our heartbeats as you loom in for a kiss.
Your breath against my skin, so warm yet so soothing.
The way you stroke my hair and my face, so gentle and delicate.
The silent attack when you lift me up or hug me from behind and I'm pleasantly caught off guard.
The lopsided grin of yours when you say sth cheesy or do sth stupid.
The twinkle in your eyes, and I'll fall in love all over again.
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(Does you heart beat fast when you read this too? ^^)

It's better to have loved and be loved than to never have loved before. #truestory
Mustered all my courage to write this. Not an easy confession even after all that we've been through.
The good times are really for keeps, but sometimes the bad times just make me wanna pack up and leave so badly.
We've both had the notion of giving up, yet we're still holding on.
I'm luvin our special bond (not easy to come by for 2 lovers) and I hope you won't give it up and you'll fight for me when the time comes.

I ♥ you, Yong Rui Ming.

Never saw 'I Love You' as a trend
'Cause I don't really work like that
I mean what I say when it leaves my lips, oh
Nothin' you could say would change my heart
'Cause I don't really love like that
If you'd only let me in I'd show ya
But I'm tired of workin' so hard

You keep pushin' me away 
Tearin' down your walls
Is Forcing Me to break
Don't know what to say will you ever let me in
It's hard for me to pretend
So tell me what you wanna do tell me is there any other way

'Cause goodbye's on the tip of my tongue
Tell me there's a reason to say
Cause I'm about to get up and run
Better Think about the words you say
If You don't wanna end up alone
Tell me is there any room for me
Cause when it's all said and done babe
I'm tired of singin', oh
Goodbye's on the tip of my tongue, oh
Goodbye's on the tip of my...

Never confuse me with where you've been
Cause I don't really work like that
If I'm holdin you then I'm all in
I know you're scared, yeah you've been burned
But I Won't Ever hurt you like that
If you'd take a chance I'm not like them

Give and get nothin' in return
You don't seem to care
You're not the only one who hurt"Tell me what you wanna do tell me is there any other way

Cause goodbye's on the tip of my tongue
Tell me there's a reason to say
Cause I'm about to get up and run
Better Think about the words you say
If You don't wanna end up alone
Tell me is there any room for me
Cause when it's all said and done babe
I'm tired of singin', oh
Goodbye's on the tip of my tongue, oh
Goodbye's on the tip of my tongue, oh
Goodbye's on the tip of my tongue, oh
Goodbye's on the tip of my...

Why ya gotta pull away
Pull Away And Leave me hangin'
Why Ya Gotta Make me Say
Don't make me say what you've been thinkin' all along, oh