The last straw.

Almost brokedown as I left your place. The strong girl that had been resisting her emotions all this while, completely snapped . The floodgates opened, and her vision blurred. Her heart ached badly as she longed for his presence and his comforting hugs. The lights that flickered seem to be mocking her for being so insanely naiive. This is all a girl gets when she loves hard and falls hard.

Finally. I had to end this. I couldn't do this alone anymore - this mentally tiring game of endurance which wears me out daily.
Be it for the better or the worse, nothing's gonna remain the same forever.
It's been prolonged and delayed countless times because neither of us were doing anything about it, and things weren't improving; in fact, decelerating.

It hurts so bad, so so bad. Yet I threw aside all my emotions to fully immerse myself into loving you for the one last time. Just for today, I ignored all the hurt/anger/sadness/disappointment I've felt and channelled my best efforts into creating a last beautiful memory of us. Thank the lord for a successful day, thank you bby for all the laughter and joy we shared. It was a really good idea to watch running man - I momentarily forgot about everything else.

I'm sorry I had to resort to writing you a letter, I guess I would never be able to end things upfront.
Save me the emotional drama, and I leave with dignity.

I hope I don't wake up remembering what I have been trying so hard to get over.
It's exhausting to go through this sickening nightly routine of missing someone.\