Why does shit always have to happen??? Can't I just live a life with a proper relationship without meeting fucked up people. How many more fucked up guys do I have to meet. I don't even know what's right for a relationship, let alone who will be Mr. Right when he comes along in my life. I just don't know how to face people and treat a relationship properly anymore.
Life really has been playing cyclical jokes on me in terms of relationships. I wanna declare that I'm not afraid to love anymore, but now I've to think twice before making that statement. When I wanna move forward and improve my relationships, bombshells drop. Is this a testament of my loyalty or endurance or whatever? Have I not been loyal and patient enough in relationships? Loyal also suffer, toy with others also suffer. What then?
I wasn't desperate for any guy or any relationship. I took a ride with the natural flow of life. Then he came along, spiced up my life, made me raise little hopes, only to realise in the time to come that he was just another bastard out there. (Not in the sense that he cheated on me, but the way he treats me.)
What can I say? I'm disappointed. Seriously, it never pays to be kind and sincere to people, does it? The good always loses in my case. FUCK.
Life really has been playing cyclical jokes on me in terms of relationships. I wanna declare that I'm not afraid to love anymore, but now I've to think twice before making that statement. When I wanna move forward and improve my relationships, bombshells drop. Is this a testament of my loyalty or endurance or whatever? Have I not been loyal and patient enough in relationships? Loyal also suffer, toy with others also suffer. What then?
I wasn't desperate for any guy or any relationship. I took a ride with the natural flow of life. Then he came along, spiced up my life, made me raise little hopes, only to realise in the time to come that he was just another bastard out there. (Not in the sense that he cheated on me, but the way he treats me.)
What can I say? I'm disappointed. Seriously, it never pays to be kind and sincere to people, does it? The good always loses in my case. FUCK.
There's still your girlfriends who love you. Don't worry <3
ReplyDeleteThe good always seems to be at the losing end,like me.but faith and hope its what keeps us going.for the trials and pain we'll be put through are not noughts at the further end of the path.just keep your focus on other stuff and eventually what will come,will come.
ReplyDeleteChill babe! Thats life, at times it sucks, at times its awesome, im sure you will meet someone nice. Besides you still have your friends. ;D
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