First time I'm staying home on National Day.
Ever since Sec 2, when I was allowed to stay out late to catch fireworks, I've been out on this day, every year without fail.But this year I'm gonna be staying at home due to a bitchy stomachache and a bad headache.
When I'm sick, I feel absolutely moody, and I just wanna rot at home.
Today's just one of the examples.
Even my dad and mum are out wtheck.
But on a brighter note, I won't have to squeeze with any crowd, cos it's just gonna be so packed later on!
AND I ALWAYS EMPHASIZE THAT I HATE CROWDS.
Ironic to the previous me when I was younger - I loved crowds because I loved the feel of dressing nicely, and being seen by so many others out there.
Now that I'm older, I always shun crowds teeeheeheee.
SORRY TO BETTY AND WINSON!
Cannot celebrate both your birthdays' today. :(But I really don't want to go out to big parties and worsen my headache, and be a party-spoiler when I've no mood to socialise.
Guess I'm gonna use this free time to rest, and catch up with some housekeeping matters later!
My room's in such a mess, its a eyesore.
Always mentioned about getting started cleaning it up, but have not yet gotten down to doing it BECAUSE I JUST DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START FROM!The mess seems never-ending. And I hoard practically everything.
If I don't start throwing stuff away, I guess my room will still remain the same even after cleaning up HAHA.
Because there will still be many stacks of stuff piled everywhere, and the worse is that many of these are either totally unused, or I don't touch them anymore, yet still cannot bear to throw wtf.
I'm skeptical as to whether hoarding stuff is classified as a good or bad characteristic now HAHA
P/s: I wanna tune myself out. I'm so unsure of myself. There are so many things I wanna fucking blog about here, my actual thoughts, yet something's holding me back. I'M STUCK IN A BOX, A DILEMMA, AN ILLUSION, A DEPTH AND STATE OF CONFUSION AND CONTRADICTION.
Pp/s: Hopefully by cleaning up the mess in my room, the mess in my head will automatically disappear too.
Ppp/s: I seem to be enjoying myself on the outside, yet I'm sad inside for some unknown reason. Maybe cos I'm actually feeling lonely haha.
There is a phrase that goes: 'the happiest people are actually the saddest ones deep inside' right? Maybe I can relate to that.
I NEED CONSTANT ENTERTAINMENT TO KEEP MY MIND OFF FEELING SAD. ANYONE SUGGEST STH GOOD PUH-PLEASE??? :)
